Food. I'm making just enough to get my bills paid, but I've been eating ramen and Mac and cheese for around a year. I just want to be able to have food in the fridge/cupboard. It's getting so fucking tiring to never have basic necessities to work so fucking hard to keep my bank account in the negative. I'm so fucking depressed.
Now that I'm done venting, I would absolutely love to be able to get some gifts for my brothers and sisters but it just doesn't look like it'll be feasible this year.
I have so much trouble with wishlists. The things I want are usually niche or expensive. I added an atomic wall clock and one of those boogie boards. I went ahead and added all the parts for a new computer I've been meaning to build for like 4 years lol. I'll just buy the remainder myself. I just got into ham radio but it seems tricky to find things that are relatively cheap to ask for on a wish list that aren't garbage.
I’m traveling internationally to visit my fiancé and spend our first Christmas together. I just want the trip to go smoothly and take full advantage of the 120 PTO hours I’m burning without getting an urgent work call.
For me it’s all the stress at work around the holidays (work harder before/after) then being invited to a ton of social things (I work from home and I’m happy for the most part being alone all the time). I actually love my job too so it’s more annoying than anything that everyone is in la-la land while I’m just wanting to get stuff done.
I hate showing up like a clown and not connecting with anyone; it’s all so fucking corny. I guess that’s married life though.